Let the brain speak

Exactly a month today since i had my sip of Bombay Sapphire. I'm hoping that it would be the last.

To most, it seems like a so-what deal. But to me, it's a "wow" achievement. Top three reasons listed as follows:

1. Weekends
I have to start to make it a norm for meetings with my mates a non-alcoholic one. This applies to me and me only as the majority of my frens drink.

2. Residence
I live next to a freakin coldroom. Enough said.

3. Advertisements
New product all the time, new curiousity, new temptations.

"If i can live without it for one day, then i don't need it at all," was the saying of a wise fren of mine to me that kept me going strong. Sadly enough, it was a matter of NATO for the opposite party. I refuse to be the hypocrite and contradict myself this time of the year, or ever, for that matter, again.

It worked for the ciggies. And i have no doubt that it will work with the booze this time.

I am turning twenty soon. And i have to say, compared to my other frens who are more than three decades old, i have under-achieved. In fact, i am not even halfway there. Damnit i've blown my chances and i'm not gonna let history repeat itself once again.

I suppose the only solution left for me is to make the most of what i've got now and get on with it. Also i should stop comparing myself with others because if i do, and keep doing it, i will never be true to myself. Of course, it is vital to use others' success as an inspiration but i also have to familiarize myself with the fact that we are all gifted in our own special ways.

Man i have to spell out everytime for myself.

Because i'm highly indecissive see. Because some think i'm a big joke. Because some have put me down so low that even the lowest scum on to ever live could never ever go there.

Having said that, i wish no sympathetic messages from the rest because i want anything but. And to top it off, i am not seeking sympathy. Just jotting down what the brain thinks. Nothing wrong with speaking the mind. That's the beauty of blogging after all. So let me speak.