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Monday, April 30, 2007

Fancy snapping images of yerself?

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My post today would be about reflection.

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I've always wondered how true is the saying "What goes around comes around" and "You always get what you deserve". Then of course, there's karma; be it good or bad.

What keeps on throbbing in this hollow skull of mine is how far are those that revolve around us relevant to our actions? In other words, to what extent is our fortune propotional to our doings?

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I know that it is indeed wrong to question our fate, or God's will for that matter. But at times i felt like i don't deserve what i am forced to endure. Then again, it could be one of those painful lessons in life, that shapes me to be the person that i am today, or in the near future. Then again, at this time, at this stage, do i really have to go through all those? Perhaps if i do have to at one point in my life, it would be when the situation is more... no, is LESS, trying? Sometimes i feel like having a handful of mischiefs [sp?] flooding my head, let alone my life, at once incredibly unbearable.

Take for example, the demand of a person whom i love dearly, not romantically, but just plain ol' dearly lurve, to eliminate a person whom i long for terribly, from my life. Now i know some might be rolling their eyes at this instant but note that this is not the debut occurance. In fact, this would be the same time, to the same type of person, but by a source that i could try to overcome with.

Your head spinning already? Relax. Take a chill pill. Read the paragraph again til it makes sense. Else, proceed below for further elaboration =p

All i can say is, i don't think i will allow this person to take away the best thing that has ever happened to me for a bloody long period of time. Now, it's on its way to destruction just because of this person's ego. Formerly, it was because He wanted to take her back. But now... I won't let it fly by. Not anymore. Not if i can prevent it too. I can't give up this person because...

Just because.

Then, a couple, both close friends of mine whom i once thought were a match made in you-know-where, are officialy divorced today. *sigh*

That was after his wife confessed that she fancied me.
And that his wife wanted to migrate to Brissy.
And after his wife departed with her ex-girlfriend.
And after his kid got "insured" by a pusher.
And after his wife appointed me fairy-godmama of her kid.
And after he admitted that he will not surrender heroin.
And after her sufferings finally met its limit.

Sounds surreal, no? Imagine yourself in my shoes. My veins are bulging on the sides of my temples. And, it does not stop there. There's plenty than where that came from.

I am also very concerned about a dear friend who has to nurture a to-be-nearly-formed family that exists way ahead of schedule.
I am also very confused about my relationship with Mr.RJ.
I am also very crushed about my academic performance.

Pening la. Peninggg aku.

So, you feeling a lil' vain?

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